I thought this would be my last post on this particular topic. I planned to share the second writing from author Marlo Schalesky and then move on to some new material…So for those of you ready to read about something different — I’m sorry.
This exploration of infertility, the journey and struggle that so many couples face has just totally gripped me. I was so hesitant to even dip my toes in this water…feeling like I have no experience therefore I have no right to blog or write about it. I guess I feared one wrong word would upset a huge population of women (couples) who are consumed with hurt. I remember in the depths of my own despair it was in everyone’s best interest to walk on eggshells around me. One wrong word could really set me off. One well-intentioned person trying to offer me advice or condolences could cause me to erupt with anger, lash out, and feel the sting all over again.
But truthfully, I shouldn’t be so surprised…it’s not entirely NEW to me. I’ve always had an intensely tender spot in my heart for women faced with this struggle…those close to me…and those I don’t know. Twice I made the decision to donate my eggs in the hopes they might be the answer to prayer and the miracle that some couple longed for. I’ll never know if the donations were successful or if the receiving couples have a healthy baby now to love, but I knew it was a small thing I could do so it was an easy decision for me.
Anyway — I’m breaking from Marlo’s pieces today to insert some YouTube video I found.
Now many of you know music is my first love. It is the core of who I am and singing, performing, leading worship, making music…few things bring me happiness like that. So…if I manage to go 1 or more posts between sharing a song — I’m really proud of myself! I’ve gone several posts now (I think) so this song…I had to share.
Consider yourselves warned: Have Kleenex near. For those of you struggling with infertility — this video manages to capture so many different situations and different struggles. Particularly the idea that so many women have…that their struggle now to get pregnant or to carry the baby to term is somehow punishment for their past mistakes, sins, etc. But I want to remind you what God’s word says in Psalm 103:12 — as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us. If you are forgiven in Christ — those sins are yours no more — that slate is wiped clean.
Now – I know a video like this could take a “good day” (so to speak) and turn it into a heartwrenching one…so watch with caution. I’m certain that my words, nor Marlo’s, nor any video or song can ease the pain. That, I know, only God can do. But to know that you are not alone, that what you’re feeling is like that of so many others…maybe there is some small comfort in that. In the end…only God can take the pain from you…and He longs to!
Link #1 is a song/video by Kellie Coffey (whom I love to perform at my country shows) called: I Would Die For That
Link #2 I’m sharing for the song…not so much the video. I don’t find the video quite as powerful as link #1 but this is a song by Third Day called “When the Rain Comes” and if you’re like me at all — and find some kind of healing in songs — then this is one to add to your collection. It applies to any situation of pain, brokenness and hurting.
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